30th Sep 2014
Photo booths are kind of creepy and over complicated.

Also, in other news…

I did the dishes and unclogged my drain.

Excelsior!

Photo booths are kind of creepy and over complicated.

Also, in other news…

I did the dishes and unclogged my drain.

Excelsior!

30th Sep 2014

Volcanoes Aside

Things have been bad lately. 

I’m doing the thing. The thing that everyone says happens at some point while you’re in Japan. The weird part is, I didn’t realize I was doing the thing. It took another JET to point it out. 

I was just having a bad day—a bad couple of hours, really. That’s all it took, and suddenly every small thing I was worried about was right in front of me. Like I was in a head-on collision; the air bag explodes and presses against me, surrounding me with all my doubts, concerns, fears, and a sharp sense of just wanting to run away. 

All of that while I sat quietly at my bare desk, waiting for 4:30 to come around. 

After what felt like an eternity I finally left for the day, and called the aforementioned JET to vent. I talked about how “meh” I felt, complained about my filthy apartment and how I couldn’t bring myself to do anything about it. About how all I seem to able to do lately is shut off my lights and watch Criminal Minds while bottles and plates form a shame orbit around my floor chair. How I feel like a failure for not being able to take care of myself.

She said, “Don’t be so hard on yourself, you’re  a little depressed. Even if you don’t realize it.”

And to be honest, I hadn’t. 

I’ve had some back luck lately. I managed to pop my tire in front of my junior high during undokai, resulting in both embarrassment and frustration with the communication barrier. When they fixed my tire they didn’t tell me the parking brake was on (I rarely use it myself), and I couldn’t read the manual to figure out what (  !  ) light meant. It was a few days before my brakes started to give out and I took it in only for the mechanic to give me that, “Silly gaijin, how could you be so stupid?,” look. 

So, it’s there. The thing. I’m trying to remind myself that there is so much more good than bad in my life right now. I have good friends, both here and in America, I’m going places and seeing things, and I’ve even made Halloween plans. 

I don’t usually write long rants like this so I apologize for the TL;DR nature of this post.

IN CONCLUSION, I see the thing. And knowing is half the battle, right?

1st Sep 2014

EHHHH

somewhere in the teachers room I just heard dial-up connecting.

1st Sep 2014
69shadesofgray:


only true minnesotans will understand


FEELS

69shadesofgray:

only true minnesotans will understand

FEELS

14th Aug 2014

IM SO FANCY

Hey y’all.

My sister and I will be in Tokyo from Aug 17th - 24th. If anyone here had any suggestions or wants to hang, shoot me a message or comment or whathaveyou.

8th Aug 2014
Ain’t no one who can hide in the tough part of spider town (aka the hallway to my apartment).

Ain’t no one who can hide in the tough part of spider town (aka the hallway to my apartment).

2nd Aug 2014
"No man is brave that has never walked a hundred miles. If you want to know the truth of who you are, walk until not a person knows your name. Travel is the great leveler, the great teacher, bitter as medicine, crueler than mirror-glass. A long stretch of road will teach you more about yourself than a hundred years of quiet."
Source: Patrick Rothfuss, The Wise Man’s Fear
31st Jul 2014

WHEN I CAN’T BE BOTHERED TO SEPARATE TRASH

ijustcanttoday:

27th Jul 2014

My trip to USJ/Harry Potter World was a success.

Not pictured: the chocolate frog I ate and Luna’s wand that I now have.

The butter beer was all I wanted it to be.

8th Jul 2014

http://illusionarymoon.tumblr.com/post/91172741064/t-minus-2-weeks-till-pre-departure-orientation-and

illusionarymoon:

velizaraptor:

illusionarymoon:

T-minus 2 weeks till pre-departure orientation and jeez am I nervous

The worst part I think is buying clothes. I loathe clothes shopping, and as someone whose wardrobe has only consisted of t-shirts, jeans, and hoodies, I’ve had to do a lot of shopping. It sucks that, as one of the heavier sets,…

BRING SHORTS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

GOOD IDEA I FORGOT ABOUT THAT

I’ll put it on the to-buy list

I’m assuming this means Kobe is worse than I imagined in terms of heat I’m going to cry

It’s everywhere. I came in April with capris thinking I would be okay. Now I’m weeping because I can’t find shorts in my size.